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Stupid C Word
hlynn
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I know I haven't been everyone's favorite. But if you could keep my mom in your prayers (for those of you that do so) I would appreciate it. She has Stage 4 metastasized melanoma & she had another PET scan today & it showed lesions on her brain now. She's having an MRI now to find out the exact spots and course of action. She's in Ohio. I'm in NC. Sister is on her way from Virginia. I just hate not being there. Feel like a terrible child.

Thank you.
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I'm so sorry to hear this..

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Nevertooold - 2014-02-20 5:00 PM I'm so sorry to hear this..



Sending prayers.







Amen. 
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Reg. Nov 2006
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I am so sorry to hear this, sending prayers for your mom , and hugs for you  
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Reg. Jul 2008
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Reg. Jan 2009
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for your mother.



for you and your family.
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hlynn
Reg. Dec 2011
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MRI results show up to 10 lesions. One tumor is pressing on her spine. She'll be in surgery in the morning to remove it. Then radiation as soon as she's stable.

I can't believe it. She's been working through all of it.
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 I am so so sorry.... hard thing to deal with.  Going thru it myself right now.  It takes its toll on everyone involved
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hlynn - 2014-02-20 7:28 PM MRI results show up to 10 lesions. One tumor is pressing on her spine. She'll be in surgery in the morning to remove it. Then radiation as soon as she's stable. I can't believe it. She's been working through all of it.

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Reg. Jan 2009
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Sorry to hear this I hate the C word! Prayers for your mother.
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Reg. Dec 2006
Posted 2014-02-20 7:59 PM
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So i feel like an idiot.  When I read your subject, the first thing that came to mind was a word the ryhmes with aunt.........I'm very sorry to hear about your mom.  My dad went through lung cancer last year.  He is the strongest man I know so my biggest fear was for him to be laying weak in a hospital bed.  He spend about 6 months doing Chemo 2-3 times a week and radiation 5 times a week.  Then after that he had surgery to remove part of one of his lungs.  He came through so strong. He actually took it all as a chance for new experiences.  I cried at home a lot for him when it all started, worrying about him.  It is so scary. I feel for you.

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Reg. Jul 2008
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Reg. Feb 2008
Posted 2014-02-20 8:11 PM
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hlynn - 2014-02-20 7:28 PM MRI results show up to 10 lesions. One tumor is pressing on her spine. She'll be in surgery in the morning to remove it. Then radiation as soon as she's stable. I can't believe it. She's been working through all of it.

I'm so very sorry this is happening to your mom.  Have faith in the Lord for his healing powers.  
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Reg. May 2006
Posted 2014-02-20 8:16 PM
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hlynn
Reg. Dec 2011
Posted 2014-02-20 8:24 PM
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Thank you everyone.

Trying to have some kind of faith. But to be honest, since my Pap died last summer, I've lost it. It's been a rocky road for my mom. Divorced. Diagnosed with cancer. Losing her dad. Now this. She still has her faith tho. But I can't seem to find mine.
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Reg. Feb 2008
Posted 2014-02-20 8:26 PM
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hlynn - 2014-02-20 8:24 PM Thank you everyone. Trying to have some kind of faith. But to be honest, since my Pap died last summer, I've lost it. It's been a rocky road for my mom. Divorced. Diagnosed with cancer. Losing her dad. Now this. She still has her faith tho. But I can't seem to find mine.

Your Faith is the most important thing in this fight.  Find it!!! 
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Bibliafarm
Reg. Jul 2008
Posted 2014-02-20 8:32 PM
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you have to find it. Our God is there with us to carry us thru these times.NOW more then ever..

you need him. Pray ..

my dad had a soft tissue sarcoma 13 cm removed 2 yrs ago. went thru radiation and this past year  it came back to his lung metestisized. He had 26 rounds of chemo. it killed all but one tumor a small cell spindle tumor. and they just removed part of his lung.. without our faith I dont think it would have been tolerable. lean on him. pray to him. trust in him.  times like this.. you must have faith.. to get strength. Our god is powerful !!.
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hlynn
Reg. Dec 2011
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Bibliafarm - 2014-02-20 9:32 PM

you have to find it. Our God is there with us to carry us thru these times.NOW more then ever..

you need him. Pray ..

my dad had a soft tissue sarcoma 13 cm removed 2 yrs ago. went thru radiation and this past year  it came back to his lung metestisized. He had 26 rounds of chemo. it killed all but one tumor a small cell spindle tumor. and they just removed part of his lung.. without our faith I dont think it would have been tolerable. lean on him. pray to him. trust in him.  times like this.. you must have faith.. to get strength. Our god is powerful !!.

Of all things we've said/typed/thought of each other, I just want to say a few things:

Thank you. And I'm sorry.

I appreciate everything you've said since I've mentioned this battle with my mom. Thank you. P

Edited by hlynn 2014-02-20 8:54 PM
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Reg. Jan 2004
Posted 2014-02-20 9:07 PM
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hlynn - 2014-02-20 6:24 PM Thank you everyone. Trying to have some kind of faith. But to be honest, since my Pap died last summer, I've lost it. It's been a rocky road for my mom. Divorced. Diagnosed with cancer. Losing her dad. Now this. She still has her faith tho. But I can't seem to find mine.

Sometimes it's very difficult during times like these to find or hold on to our faith/belief in God.  You may be questioning him, but He is still holding on to you, hugging you, caring about you and showering you with his love.  He has not left your side during all of your struggles. He has cried when you cried, laughed when you laughed and loved you for just being you.  
Close your eyes, ask him to hold you tight, wrap his arms around you and give you strength to accept what is happening right here, right now. Tomorrow will take care of itself.  Ask him to surround you with his love and guidence, to give you courage to face what is front of you with grace and dignity. Give to him all your fears, concerns and anxiety and ask him to replace it with love, peace and serenity. Pray that His will be done.   


Sending prayers for you and your mom. 
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Bibliafarm - 2014-02-20 7:32 PM you have to find it. Our God is there with us to carry us thru these times.NOW more then ever..



you need him. Pray ..



my dad had a soft tissue sarcoma 13 cm removed 2 yrs ago. went thru radiation and this past year  it came back to his lung metestisized. He had 26 rounds of chemo. it killed all but one tumor a small cell spindle tumor. and they just removed part of his lung.. without our faith I dont think it would have been tolerable. lean on him. pray to him. trust in him.  times like this.. you must have faith.. to get strength. Our god is powerful !!.

Exactly what Biblia said.  Don't know if you have kept up with my story.  Started with a divorce being filed because husband had had a 3 1/2 year affair with a lady that was the age of my children  Long drawn out and nine months into the divorce I was diagnosed with breast cancer.  Continuing divorce had bilateral masectomy, chemo and radiation at which time I also devolped shingles.  While this was going on we found out my mother has liver cancer.  Then I lost one of the best friends I ever had my Rat Terrorist to diabetes and kidney failure, he was 12.  Then divorce was final October 1, 2013.  Had to start making plans to find a new place to live.  January 3, 2014 my nineteen year old stud horse died.  Packed up and moved out January 7.  Then I got a phone call last Saturday morning February 15 that my now ex-husband of 27 years had died. 
I know you and your mother have had a very hard time.  But I can tell you the only thing that has kept me going through all of my drama has been my faith in God.  That and all of these kind wonderful people here on BHW praying for me, keeping in touch and caring so much.
You must reach deep down and find your faith...God has not forsaken you.  He is waiting for you to ask for help He will always be there for you.
I am sorry this was so long but I felt like you needed this, certainly not for anyone to feel sorry for me.  I have my faith and know that God has wonderful things in store for me in His time.
God bless you and your mother and you have my heartfelt prayers.

 
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Posted 2014-02-20 9:08 PM
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 I'm thinking of you and your mom and sending you guys prayers
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I lost my Dad to cancer. He fought for 4 years and beat it once. I couldn't even imagine being in your shoes and not being nearby. Praying for you and your family! Cancer is a horrible, horrible disease.  
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Posted 2014-02-20 9:23 PM
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Posted 2014-02-21 5:05 AM
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sorrel horse ranch - 2014-02-20 9:07 PM

Bibliafarm - 2014-02-20 7:32 PM you have to find it. Our God is there with us to carry us thru these times.NOW more then ever..



you need him. Pray ..



my dad had a soft tissue sarcoma 13 cm removed 2 yrs ago. went thru radiation and this past year  it came back to his lung metestisized. He had 26 rounds of chemo. it killed all but one tumor a small cell spindle tumor. and they just removed part of his lung.. without our faith I dont think it would have been tolerable. lean on him. pray to him. trust in him.  times like this.. you must have faith.. to get strength. Our god is powerful !!.

Exactly what Biblia said.  Don't know if you have kept up with my story.  Started with a divorce being filed because husband had had a 3 1/2 year affair with a lady that was the age of my children  Long drawn out and nine months into the divorce I was diagnosed with breast cancer.  Continuing divorce had bilateral masectomy, chemo and radiation at which time I also devolped shingles.  While this was going on we found out my mother has liver cancer.  Then I lost one of the best friends I ever had my Rat Terrorist to diabetes and kidney failure, he was 12.  Then divorce was final October 1, 2013.  Had to start making plans to find a new place to live.  January 3, 2014 my nineteen year old stud horse died.  Packed up and moved out January 7.  Then I got a phone call last Saturday morning February 15 that my now ex-husband of 27 years had died. 
I know you and your mother have had a very hard time.  But I can tell you the only thing that has kept me going through all of my drama has been my faith in God.  That and all of these kind wonderful people here on BHW praying for me, keeping in touch and caring so much.
You must reach deep down and find your faith...God has not forsaken you.  He is waiting for you to ask for help He will always be there for you.
I am sorry this was so long but I felt like you needed this, certainly not for anyone to feel sorry for me.  I have my faith and know that God has wonderful things in store for me in His time.
God bless you and your mother and you have my heartfelt prayers.

 

Wow! To say you have been through a lot is an understatement! So sorry!
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sorrel horse ranch - 2014-02-20 10:07 PM

Bibliafarm - 2014-02-20 7:32 PM you have to find it. Our God is there with us to carry us thru these times.NOW more then ever..



you need him. Pray ..



my dad had a soft tissue sarcoma 13 cm removed 2 yrs ago. went thru radiation and this past year  it came back to his lung metestisized. He had 26 rounds of chemo. it killed all but one tumor a small cell spindle tumor. and they just removed part of his lung.. without our faith I dont think it would have been tolerable. lean on him. pray to him. trust in him.  times like this.. you must have faith.. to get strength. Our god is powerful !!.

Exactly what Biblia said.  Don't know if you have kept up with my story.  Started with a divorce being filed because husband had had a 3 1/2 year affair with a lady that was the age of my children  Long drawn out and nine months into the divorce I was diagnosed with breast cancer.  Continuing divorce had bilateral masectomy, chemo and radiation at which time I also devolped shingles.  While this was going on we found out my mother has liver cancer.  Then I lost one of the best friends I ever had my Rat Terrorist to diabetes and kidney failure, he was 12.  Then divorce was final October 1, 2013.  Had to start making plans to find a new place to live.  January 3, 2014 my nineteen year old stud horse died.  Packed up and moved out January 7.  Then I got a phone call last Saturday morning February 15 that my now ex-husband of 27 years had died. 
I know you and your mother have had a very hard time.  But I can tell you the only thing that has kept me going through all of my drama has been my faith in God.  That and all of these kind wonderful people here on BHW praying for me, keeping in touch and caring so much.
You must reach deep down and find your faith...God has not forsaken you.  He is waiting for you to ask for help He will always be there for you.
I am sorry this was so long but I felt like you needed this, certainly not for anyone to feel sorry for me.  I have my faith and know that God has wonderful things in store for me in His time.
God bless you and your mother and you have my heartfelt prayers.

 

Thank you for sharing with me.

It's just hard for me I guess. I just have so many questions that haven't been answered and other things. I know I have to be strong for my Mom, that's my job as her kiddo. Hopefully now she'll quit her manual labor job and move south to be closer to her kids and grandkids. She refused to move before, being as she had medical insurance through her job (which isn't that great. The bills are piling up of course).

So many things need to be worked out. And with a full college course load, two kiddos under 5, and livestock, it's hard to just jump up & run up there for an extended time. We are making plans to drive up next weekend. I hate that it takes time to hash things out like this. But it's the nature of life I guess. Luckily my sister is AD Navy & her kids are school age & her husband is out & able to take care of kids. Mine works nights. So it's not easy to find care for them. :/

She's not alone tho. My aunt is with her. Surgery is being scheduled for tomorrow or beginning of next week now. I guess they're working around the neurologists' schedule. And trying to schedule treatments too. I've heard melanoma is very invasive tho and you don't get 'cured', you just last a few years longer.

Thanks to everyone for thoughts and prayers.
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hlynn - 2014-02-21 6:19 AM

sorrel horse ranch - 2014-02-20 10:07 PM

Bibliafarm - 2014-02-20 7:32 PM you have to find it. Our God is there with us to carry us thru these times.NOW more then ever..



you need him. Pray ..



my dad had a soft tissue sarcoma 13 cm removed 2 yrs ago. went thru radiation and this past year  it came back to his lung metestisized. He had 26 rounds of chemo. it killed all but one tumor a small cell spindle tumor. and they just removed part of his lung.. without our faith I dont think it would have been tolerable. lean on him. pray to him. trust in him.  times like this.. you must have faith.. to get strength. Our god is powerful !!.

Exactly what Biblia said.  Don't know if you have kept up with my story.  Started with a divorce being filed because husband had had a 3 1/2 year affair with a lady that was the age of my children  Long drawn out and nine months into the divorce I was diagnosed with breast cancer.  Continuing divorce had bilateral masectomy, chemo and radiation at which time I also devolped shingles.  While this was going on we found out my mother has liver cancer.  Then I lost one of the best friends I ever had my Rat Terrorist to diabetes and kidney failure, he was 12.  Then divorce was final October 1, 2013.  Had to start making plans to find a new place to live.  January 3, 2014 my nineteen year old stud horse died.  Packed up and moved out January 7.  Then I got a phone call last Saturday morning February 15 that my now ex-husband of 27 years had died. 
I know you and your mother have had a very hard time.  But I can tell you the only thing that has kept me going through all of my drama has been my faith in God.  That and all of these kind wonderful people here on BHW praying for me, keeping in touch and caring so much.
You must reach deep down and find your faith...God has not forsaken you.  He is waiting for you to ask for help He will always be there for you.
I am sorry this was so long but I felt like you needed this, certainly not for anyone to feel sorry for me.  I have my faith and know that God has wonderful things in store for me in His time.
God bless you and your mother and you have my heartfelt prayers.

 

Thank you for sharing with me.

It's just hard for me I guess. I just have so many questions that haven't been answered and other things. I know I have to be strong for my Mom, that's my job as her kiddo. Hopefully now she'll quit her manual labor job and move south to be closer to her kids and grandkids. She refused to move before, being as she had medical insurance through her job (which isn't that great. The bills are piling up of course).

So many things need to be worked out. And with a full college course load, two kiddos under 5, and livestock, it's hard to just jump up & run up there for an extended time. We are making plans to drive up next weekend. I hate that it takes time to hash things out like this. But it's the nature of life I guess. Luckily my sister is AD Navy & her kids are school age & her husband is out & able to take care of kids. Mine works nights. So it's not easy to find care for them. :/

She's not alone tho. My aunt is with her. Surgery is being scheduled for tomorrow or beginning of next week now. I guess they're working around the neurologists' schedule. And trying to schedule treatments too. I've heard melanoma is very invasive tho and you don't get 'cured', you just last a few years longer.

Thanks to everyone for thoughts and prayers.

Thank you for sharing more of your life with us. You definitely have a lot on your plate. Don't every worry about not being able to be with your Mom for her surgery. She will do fine and she absolutely has to know how much you love her. My mother had some surgeries years ago I couldn't be with her because I had two small children too.
Just know we are here for you if there is anything I can do for you please let me know. I will keep you, your mom and the rest of your family in my prayers. Cancer can be so different for each person so let's not think about anything you might have heard about this type. Miracles happen every day. That is what I am going to think about concerning your mom.
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Posted 2014-02-21 9:29 AM
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Posted 2014-02-21 9:44 AM
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justcruzin
Reg. Oct 2003
Posted 2014-02-21 9:54 AM
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Posted 2014-02-21 10:01 AM
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Posted 2014-02-21 12:10 PM
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Reg. Dec 2009
Posted 2014-02-21 12:33 PM
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Reg. Jul 2007
Posted 2014-02-21 1:29 PM
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Reg. Feb 2011
Posted 2014-02-21 1:54 PM
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Reg. Jan 2011
Posted 2014-02-21 2:12 PM
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hlynn
Reg. Dec 2011
Posted 2014-02-21 5:24 PM
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Surgery is scheduled for Monday. Then she'll have 10 radiation treatments for the tumors in her brain. And she will stay on the pills they have had her on for the rest of her body. (She had tumors in her lungs that had been shrinking along with the original tumor in her eye)

She wants to go back to work. Still wants to close on a house. And I have no idea how to handle this. I know she wants to be as "normal" as possible, but I really wish she would come down here, closer to BOTH of her daughters.

She's so hard headed.
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Posted 2014-02-21 5:57 PM
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hlynn
Reg. Dec 2011
Posted 2014-02-24 12:10 PM
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Surgery was today. Apparently the tumor was affecting her balance and making her so dizzy she was sick to her stomach. She's in ICU now for observation for 24 hours, then she'll be in step down recovery until she's ready to go home. She's unable to drive for 6 months though. So I have no idea what will happen now. Both of her kids are over 600 miles away. Her brothers don't live close enough to drive her around. And I know she'll fight quitting her job or moving away.

But what else can we do? If anyone has experience in this, please give me some advice. I have no idea what to do here
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Southtxponygirl
Reg. Nov 2006
Posted 2014-02-24 12:16 PM
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hlynn - 2014-02-24 12:10 PM Surgery was today. Apparently the tumor was affecting her balance and making her so dizzy she was sick to her stomach. She's in ICU now for observation for 24 hours, then she'll be in step down recovery until she's ready to go home. She's unable to drive for 6 months though. So I have no idea what will happen now. Both of her kids are over 600 miles away. Her brothers don't live close enough to drive her around. And I know she'll fight quitting her job or moving away. But what else can we do? If anyone has experience in this, please give me some advice. I have no idea what to do here
Who is going to help her once she gets out of the hospital? Maybe you could go stay with her for awhile and then the other kid could come and take over for awhile again untill she gets back on her feet. Sometimes we have to drop everything to help out our family. She's going need her family for help. 

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hlynn
Reg. Dec 2011
Posted 2014-02-24 12:24 PM
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Southtxponygirl - 2014-02-24 1:16 PM

hlynn - 2014-02-24 12:10 PM Surgery was today. Apparently the tumor was affecting her balance and making her so dizzy she was sick to her stomach. She's in ICU now for observation for 24 hours, then she'll be in step down recovery until she's ready to go home. She's unable to drive for 6 months though. So I have no idea what will happen now. Both of her kids are over 600 miles away. Her brothers don't live close enough to drive her around. And I know she'll fight quitting her job or moving away. But what else can we do? If anyone has experience in this, please give me some advice. I have no idea what to do here
Who is going to help her once she gets out of the hospital? Maybe you could go stay with her for awhile and then the other kid could come and take over for awhile again untill she gets back on her feet. Sometimes we have to drop everything to help out our family. She's going need her family for help. 

If only it was that easy. I wish it was.
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Barnmom
Reg. May 2006
Posted 2014-02-24 3:26 PM
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I have no advice, hugs to you and your family, you are in a tough spot. 

When my Mom had brain cancer my Dad took a lot of family medical leave days from work, so did my sister.  My hubby hired extra help so I could be away and I took my newborn son with me so my husband just had to take care of my 4 year old son.  My Dad eventually took early retirement because my Mom got to the point where she had to be supervised 24/7.  You can hire help and some of it may be covered by insurance but after ins. runs out it gets very expensive fast. 

Prayers you Mom recovers fully and quickly and this is a very temporary situation.
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hlynn
Reg. Dec 2011
Posted 2014-02-26 5:26 PM
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Thank you all.

She made it through surgery Monday just fine. They had her in ICU in recovery. She had some issues yesterday, still having the small seizures she was having before with the tumor on her spine and she was mixing up words. The Dr wasn't terribly worried, just said they wanted to keep her in ICU a while longer until she improves. She did get moved out of ICU and into step down recovery today.

We are heading out tomorrow morning after my class for Pittsburgh. It's about a 10-12 hour drive, but will be longer with the kiddos. Hoping for an easy drive up there.

Thanks for everyone keeping her in your thoughts and prayers.
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Bibliafarm
Reg. Jul 2008
Posted 2014-02-26 5:48 PM
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when my dads cancer metistisized I packed up, and rented a place by theres..  I needed to be there for them.. horses are on back burner.. its a blip in my life.. but I was needed.. im starting to balance it back out.. my life . he had his lung tumor removed and is doing well so far but its been a very hard 2 yrs.. chemos radiation surgeries etc.. Im very close to my parents though .. I do understand when we have kids though and etc.. maybe you can help the first month or two shes home til she adjusts .. and have a nurse come in .. prayers
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Delta Cowgirl
Reg. Apr 2005
Posted 2014-02-26 6:13 PM
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hlynn
Reg. Dec 2011
Posted 2014-02-27 6:38 AM
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Bibliafarm - 2014-02-26 6:48 PM

when my dads cancer metistisized I packed up, and rented a place by theres..  I needed to be there for them.. horses are on back burner.. its a blip in my life.. but I was needed.. im starting to balance it back out.. my life . he had his lung tumor removed and is doing well so far but its been a very hard 2 yrs.. chemos radiation surgeries etc.. Im very close to my parents though .. I do understand when we have kids though and etc.. maybe you can help the first month or two shes home til she adjusts .. and have a nurse come in .. prayers

I can't just up and move. With school and kiddos and everything else. My sister and uncles have convinced her to move down here. Sister is in VA Beach so that's a lot closer to me too. She would be able to come stay every once in awhile and we would see her for holidays. I have no idea how long she'll be in the hospital. She is in step down now, but she won't be going home before her first treatment. I'll be figuring out all the details this weekend I'm sure.
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Bibliafarm
Reg. Jul 2008
Posted 2014-02-27 8:33 AM
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No I just was explaining what i did. I did say maybe just stay a month and help her but thats good shes moving to you all.. 
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hlynn
Reg. Dec 2011
Posted 2014-03-05 7:14 PM
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I have a few updates. She has decided to move down to VA Beach with my sister after 10 rounds of radiation. We had planned on her staying in a rehab center during those, but she walked out of the place 2 hours after they transferred her. She said she didn't feel right and felt like that was a place people drop unwanted people off at. Said people were screaming and all sorts of stuff. And they let her walk out! She tried to walk back to the hospital but went the wrong way and ended up a few blocks down in a whole foods store thing. So here I am, tracking my mom down in DOWNTOWN Pittsburgh at 11pm on a Friday night in single digits. I about strangled her. Put her up in a hotel with us for the night then took her to my Grandma's the next day. We got to spend some good time with her while we were there. I'm ready for her to be down here closer to me.

She seemed to be in good spirits, willing to deal with the reality of the situation though. Had to do some paperwork for powers of attorney and such. And I think the steroids she's on are making her loopy. I've never known her to be as talkative as she was or as unfiltered either. It was odd, but I just let it go.

All the research I've done on this has just made me more depressed. Everything I've seen points to months, not years, of life left. And that all depends on what works. Melanoma is resistant to radiation and the tumors are known to rupture. So I have no idea what to expect or how long she even has left. This sucks. I hate this horrible horrible disease.
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Posted 2014-03-05 8:46 PM
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