With God all things are possible
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| " I don't have it in me, I whispered to God. I am sick and tired of being overwhelmed, broke, working my butt off,and staying like in a circle that never has an end. Several friends has shared happy news about having children, I am not able to, successes, achievements, and blessings. I longed to celebrate with them. But in my secret heart, the contrast of my past life,kindled me an ugly temptation to self-pity.
I could keep my voice bright and fake it. I could say the appropriate things. But I wanted to coax my heart to match, to find sincere joy for my friends. They all seem to have it all. I whisper deep in my soul, " Lord. What about me?" But as I confessed " I don't have it in me". The recognition filled me like a deep breath of peace. Of course, I didn't have the power in myself. Just as I don't have to power to forgive those who have hurt me, or sing a song of praise through a raw throat with tears, or to serve day after day in small ways that seemed to offer no evidence of results. I can't do any of it. But Jesus CAN! and He LIVES IN me. My prayer changed in June 23,2003, I had cancer. Lord,love them through me. Change my heart, my mind, to be more like Yôurs. Lift my eyes off my needs so I can rejoice for my family and friends. it's not in me...but it's IN YOU. help me become a vessel for Yôu. And He answered. He helped me celebrate the good things He is doing in lives of others and me. Enabled me to respond genuinely, even take a few actions to support and promote them. I was healed of cancer April 12, 2004. I don't know what moral challenges, illiness, or loss I will face today, but I hope I'll remember not to face them in my own feeble power. It's not in me. Buts it's IN Him. For it is with God all things are possible .
1 John 4:13 This is how we know that we live in him and He in us; He has given us of His Spirit.
Father God, guide me today to do all things that will bring glory and honor to Yôu Amen. REMEMBER God LOVES you! And so do I !,
 
Edited by ladyjockey 2017-05-24 1:24 PM
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