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| I'm sorry for posting something like this and it's embarrassing but I'm not ok. I don't know what to do next. Truck on. I get that, but why? I would post all of the crap that has happened this month but really there is too much. I have tried to make life better for myself by looking at things differently and trying to be the person I want to be. I have spent my entire check that I received the week of my birthday (8/8) on medical stuff for 2 of my 3 horses. I broke the back glass out of my truck the day after my birthday. Tonight I go get my navicular mare out of her stall and her neck is the size of a tree trunk. My generator vibrated a hole in the top of my trailer.
This has been the hardest month I have had since I can remember. I'm sorry I'm being such a whiney baby. I texted my dad for encouragement. You don't even want to know what I got instead. He used to be my rock. Now I don't even know who he is.
I don't have anyone to turn to. I keep thinking I deserve this. I've done something to deserve this. This started a year and half ago and has not gotten better. I am waiving my white flag. I give. |
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| I've tried three times to type something that will help you. In all honesty, I don't know exactly what to say to make you feel better. Just know that I care enough about you to try. It does seem to all come crashing down all at once, and it does happen to most people, you are not alone. And you've certainly done nothing to "deserve" this! It does get better, it does get easier. You may have to get a second job for a while, or sell some stuff to help get those bills under control, but, sweetie, don't give up. |
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| Thank you for caring, seriously. It means a lot. My bills are good when things are t dying and crashing and breaking. I don't know how I have managed to cover it all. Maybe that's the bright side...
Thank you though really. |
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Red Bull Agressive
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Location: North Dakota | Aw that does sound rough. I wish I had something to say that would make it better. Up till I moved 2 years ago, I had 5 years of pure hell. I won't bore you with my tales of woe, but I'll just say it sucked. BUT it got better! And I'm sure it will for you too! |
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Location: Bandera, TX | Always keep in mind; whats's up will come down again, and what's down will eventually come up again! The only impact you have is how you handle the ups as well as the downs.
There will be great years, and bad ones. My year is not going good either and I am very frustrated, however I know it will turn around again eventually (hopefully soon)...
Hang in there - life sucks sometimes! |
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The Advice Guru
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| Happy belated birthday
It will get better, the trailer can be fixed, for now just patch it with a piece of tarp and duct tape.
Sometimes with horses you need to cut your losses, I believe the one is not your horse and your paying all vet bills, maybe it is time to send the horse back, save your money and buy a prospect.
I know we get attached and love the horses, but some things are not meant to be, maybe that horse needs a different purpose in life.
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 A Somebody to Everybody
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Location: Under The Big Sky Of Texas | Sorry that you are going threw a hard time in your life, prayers that things start to turn around for you real soon.. You sound really young, how old are you? You dont have to answer that question if you dont want too but just wondering, hugs  |
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| I am really young. 20. I try not to sound young though I guess a post like this kind of shows my immaturity.
Thanks to everyone by the way. I'll get agrip and be back at it tomorrow I'm sure. It just all seemed to pile up so fast. The horses, the truck, the trailer, family ugh. |
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A Somebody to Everybody
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Location: Under The Big Sky Of Texas | RoaniePonie11 - 2014-08-21 11:12 PM I am really young. 20. I try not to sound young though I guess a post like this kind of shows my immaturity. Thanks to everyone by the way. I'll get agrip and be back at it tomorrow I'm sure. It just all seemed to pile up so fast. The horses, the truck, the trailer, family ugh.
No you dont sound immature to me at all, you just sounded young. And yep your a young girl and I bet tomorrow you will wake up feeling better, so eat a good breakfast and shake your fist at that devil thats making you feel this way and tell that Devil to just move on, you dont have time for this kind of stuff.... Hugs |
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  Angel in a Sorrel Coat
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Location: In a happy place | I really don't have a lot of advice. I pretty much have issues most days. Just hang in there and keep trying to go forward. Know that I do care about what is happening to you. You have my prayers for strength. |
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Location: 100 miles from Nowhere, AR | Without trials, we cannot grow. Without heartache, we cannot recognize joy.
This is is part of being a grownup, and an opportunity to grow in your faith and as a person. Take a deep breath, pray for strength and guidance, and tackle one thing at a time. Eventually, you will look around and realize you walked through the fire and survived.
Something you will notice is that bad things, hard things, tend to come in clusters and make you go WTH is coming next? I don't know why this is, but it's one of Life's Truths. LOL |
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| This too shall pass. When things like this happen to me I try to remind myself that I am lucky these are the problems I am dealing with, I am lucky to have horses, heartaches and all. Hugs and yes, keep on trucking on. From your posts you are a strong responsible young woman, you will make it! |
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Draw the Line
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Location: Too Far North | You are entitled to a pity party!!
Take a day and do something nice for yourself then get on with things! This would get anyone down. Years from now you can give someone else encouragement and say, yep, been there, done that and survived! |
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Location: the end of the rainbow | I have no words of wisdom but I do have plenty of prayers for you. |
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 Coyote Country Queen
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| Awhile back someone on here posted this advice and it has stuck with me. "Hope for the best. Prepare for the worst. And deal with whatever comes your way." That has really gotten me through some tough times.
I honestly think that we all go through these things, some of us more often than others! And I'm not going to say that there aren't days that I throw my sucker in the dirt and have a pity party! But then you gather yourself back up and keep on keepin' on. Don't feel like you're alone in this, it really does happen to us all.
Keep your head up. And never forget that your BBs here on BHW are always here to listen. |
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 Playing the Waiting Game
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| sorrel horse ranch - 2014-08-22 6:29 AM I really don't have a lot of advice. I pretty much have issues most days. Just hang in there and keep trying to go forward. Know that I do care about what is happening to you. You have my prayers for strength.
What she said... BUT be happy you have your health!! All that other stuff is just STUFF... Money will come and go... GOOD health when it goes THEN you have some REAL problems...
In my life I have had cancer 3 times, open heart surgery, my house burned down, and many other surgeries too numerous to mention.
Many people keep telling me that if I didn't have bad luck I'd have NO luck at all.
I tell them I have GOOD luck! I'm still here and can function pretty well most days. I am thankful that I had good health insurance for all my treatments and the Dr.s found my cancers early enough to get me in remition and there was no one people or animal injured in my house when it burned to the ground.
I'm not looking for sympathy I just want you to see what is really important. You have friends that do care. |
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| Chin up lady! You will get through it and having a pity party occasionally helps us all bring life back into perspective.
On those days, I like to eat my favorite foods, lay on the couch with my dog, and peruse the internets. Then at the end, make a list of things I am going to accomplish the next day. You'd be surprise how rejuvenated ya feel the next day to tackle what life is throwing at you.
The hard times help us appreciate the really good times. I'll add ya to my prayer list and feel free to PM me and talk anytime. I will listen. |
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Location: DUMPING CATS AND PIGS IN TEXAS :) | Just hold on. I went through a rough patch recently and I came here. The love I received was overwhelming and it pulled me back up again. Maybe, make a list of priorities and put the most absolute important thing first and keep ranking everything. Then, just concentrate on #1 first. Scratch it off and move to #2. I know it's easier said than done, but try not to let the magnitude get to you and simplify it as much as possible. Like Cheryl said, sell a horse or two if you have to.....regroup and try again.
I'm here if you need to talk......it will all be ok in the end. Just keep holding on. Hugs :) |
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Location: Deep South | I love this picture. And keep this saying close to my heart when I'm struggling with whatever life throws at me.
I often hear people say that God will never give you more than you can handle, but I have to disagree. Sometimes I think he does give us more than we can handle alone in hopes that we will turn to Him and ask him to help share our burdens.
I'm sure you've had hard times before now. Do you think you would be the person you are today without them?
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Location: Deep South | LRQHS - 2014-08-22 9:46 AM
Just hold on. I went through a rough patch recently and I came here. The love I received was overwhelming and it pulled me back up again. Maybe, make a list of priorities and put the most absolute important thing first and keep ranking everything. Then, just concentrate on #1 first. Scratch it off and move to #2. I know it's easier said than done, but try not to let the magnitude get to you and simplify it as much as possible. Like Cheryl said, sell a horse or two if you have to.....regroup and try again.
I'm here if you need to talk......it will all be ok in the end. Just keep holding on. Hugs :)
I'm so glad you are feeling better. You have been on my heart as well. Really enjoy your positive attitude. :) |
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