sorrel horse ranch - 2014-02-20 10:07 PM


Exactly what Biblia said.  Don't know if you have kept up with my story.  Started with a divorce being filed because husband had had a 3 1/2 year affair with a lady that was the age of my children  Long drawn out and nine months into the divorce I was diagnosed with breast cancer.  Continuing divorce had bilateral masectomy, chemo and radiation at which time I also devolped shingles.  While this was going on we found out my mother has liver cancer.  Then I lost one of the best friends I ever had my Rat Terrorist to diabetes and kidney failure, he was 12.  Then divorce was final October 1, 2013.  Had to start making plans to find a new place to live.  January 3, 2014 my nineteen year old stud horse died.  Packed up and moved out January 7.  Then I got a phone call last Saturday morning February 15 that my now ex-husband of 27 years had died. 
I know you and your mother have had a very hard time.  But I can tell you the only thing that has kept me going through all of my drama has been my faith in God.  That and all of these kind wonderful people here on BHW praying for me, keeping in touch and caring so much.
You must reach deep down and find your faith...God has not forsaken you.  He is waiting for you to ask for help He will always be there for you.
I am sorry this was so long but I felt like you needed this, certainly not for anyone to feel sorry for me.  I have my faith and know that God has wonderful things in store for me in His time.
God bless you and your mother and you have my heartfelt prayers.
 

hlynn - 2014-02-21 6:19 AM


Thank you for sharing with me.

It's just hard for me I guess. I just have so many questions that haven't been answered and other things. I know I have to be strong for my Mom, that's my job as her kiddo. Hopefully now she'll quit her manual labor job and move south to be closer to her kids and grandkids. She refused to move before, being as she had medical insurance through her job (which isn't that great. The bills are piling up of course).

So many things need to be worked out. And with a full college course load, two kiddos under 5, and livestock, it's hard to just jump up & run up there for an extended time. We are making plans to drive up next weekend. I hate that it takes time to hash things out like this. But it's the nature of life I guess. Luckily my sister is AD Navy & her kids are school age & her husband is out & able to take care of kids. Mine works nights. So it's not easy to find care for them. :/

She's not alone tho. My aunt is with her. Surgery is being scheduled for tomorrow or beginning of next week now. I guess they're working around the neurologists' schedule. And trying to schedule treatments too. I've heard melanoma is very invasive tho and you don't get 'cured', you just last a few years longer.

Thanks to everyone for thoughts and prayers.

hlynn - 2014-02-24 12:10 PM Surgery was today. Apparently the tumor was affecting her balance and making her so dizzy she was sick to her stomach. She's in ICU now for observation for 24 hours, then she'll be in step down recovery until she's ready to go home. She's unable to drive for 6 months though. So I have no idea what will happen now. Both of her kids are over 600 miles away. Her brothers don't live close enough to drive her around. And I know she'll fight quitting her job or moving away. But what else can we do? If anyone has experience in this, please give me some advice. I have no idea what to do here